A Baby Story

At the end of 2013 I was telling everyone how content I was only having two children and that I didn't really want anymore. Then I kept getting promptings that we were supposed to have another baby so I had my IUD taken out. In February I had a really early miscarriage (a chemical pregnancy) but I didn't even know that's what it was until my next period didn't come for 42 days. That was the only thing that happened all year. I went through different stages emotionally last year. At first I thought that getting pregnant was what Heavenly Father wanted and I was trying because that's what I was supposed to do. Then I actually was excited at the idea of a new baby but nothing happened. Then I started feeling really frustrated and annoyed at the whole thing and by the end of the year I felt what I had felt before; that I didn't really want another baby.

A few weeks ago my friend, Annie, told me that maybe I need to give Heavenly Father an ultimatum. I thought the idea was a little crazy but I decided to do it. I told Him that if I wasn't pregnant by April I was going to have an IUD put back in. I'm not pregnant at the moment (at least not that I know of) but I had a dream last night that I was in the grocery store parking lot and a lady followed me to my car and told me she was a social worker. She had a baby with her and she wanted our family to take care of it for a while. I agreed and we all fell in love with that sweet, little baby. At the beginning of the dream I'm pretty sure that baby was a girl but at the end I know it was a boy. I remember thinking the whole time that I really hoped I didn't have to give the baby up because I had grown so attached to it.

I don't know if I had this dream to make me realize that I really would like another baby or if it was just some random dream but it has helped me to be a little more happy and excited at the idea of another baby. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens but now I know I will be happy either way.

A Focus on Cambria

From what my mother has told me, Cambria is just like me. When she's good, she's angelic. When she's bad, she's demonic. She's always had a bit of an attitude but it seems to have gotten worse the past month or so. She argues more, she screams when she's upset, she pulls my hair...well, just about anything you can think of. But she is one of the sweetest little girls, too. She loves to play babies and puppies. She has a bunch of puppies that she loves to tote around. We gave a her a Puppy Surprise for Christmas which she loves. She plays with the puppies a little but she loves the mommy dog which she named Princess Puppy. She also loves to play with Diesel and he seems to just tolerate it most days.

I guess mothers are a bit biased but I think that she is truly one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen. She's really good at using manners and she likes to sing the alphabet song and Jesus Wants Me For a Sunbeam. She loves to get under Atreyu's skin and make him upset and she knows exactly how to do it. She loves Grandpa and the feeling is definitely mutual. They are best buddies.

Cambria really is a sweetheart and I am so thankful she's mine.

I Love It When They Play Together

These kiddos of mine know exactly how to make me happy and exactly how to drive me absolutely bonkers. They are each other's best friends and greatest enemies. I suppose it's pretty normal for siblings. It is so fun to watch them play together. They play trains, "mom and dad", superheroes, puppies, witches...you name it. When they get along it makes me the happiest mommy on the planet. I wish it would happen all day everyday.

New Year's 2015

Jesse had to work on New Year's Eve so the kids and I ate popcorn and watched Aristocats while cuddling on the floor.  The kids were in bed by eight and I cleaned up and was in bed around eleven. I guess I'm one of those lame 30 year olds with kids. It was nice to get the sleep I needed.

I usually don't really make new year's resolutions but I decided I would make a few that would be beneficial to the whole family. Every day we wake up, eat breakfast, the kids do their chores, we have some education time, exercise/dance, and then the kids get playtime. It has already helped Atreyu with his letter recognition and it's nice that I don't automatically turn the TV on when the kids are driving me crazy. It's been nice having more of a schedule.