New Year's

It's New Year's Eve and I'm sitting here thinking how I could be such a better mother. I lose my patience with my children much too easily and I yell way too often. I hate myself for it but I don't know how to fix it. I love my kids so much and it makes me so upset with myself when I act this way. Lucky for me, they still love me just as much as ever and want to hug and love me even when I just got done yelling at them. I feel like I don't deserve it.

This is the time of year to make resolutions and one of mine is to be more patient. I want to learn to not yell at my kids and not lose my temper. My kids forgive me now but eventually they will get to an age where they are not as forgiving. I am going to try to make a conscious effort to be as patient as possible. I have said this many times before and so far I have been unsuccessful but I won't stop trying. My kids deserve a better mother than the one I have been up to this point and I am going to do my best to be that better mother.

Sometimes I wonder what Heavenly Father was thinking when he sent two of his sweet spirit children to me. I don't deserve them but I love them more than anyone else possibly could. They are such a blessing and a gift to me and I need to remember that when they are driving me crazy. I don't know why Heavenly Father saw fit to send them to me but I am thankful for them everyday and I am going to try to give my very best to them so that they will always know how much their mother loves them.

Here's to a New Year!

"Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one."

~ Brad Paisley